Today is Children's Day in Brazil and once again I'm not home for the occasion. I think it means a lot transition-wise for me, considering the whole symbolism of living alone and away from my family.

Anyway, today is not supposed to be a sad moment — it's a day to reflect on the many good memories from other October 12's. It reminds me to be grateful for everything I have and for every battle that has shaped me.

I think "Home, Home" sums a lot of the reflections that this day calls for. I wrote this one out of the nostalgia Home from the Undertale soundtrack evokes on me. Thank you, Toby. I don't ever want to forget this feeling, even if it lasts only for a moment.

Home, Home

How did I overlook it through the years?
Draw me near, draw me near, draw me
Lure me to the grounds, to the treetops
The sky’s just never been more like it
The wind makes a gentle mess in my head
To say I’m determined is an understatement
Maybe I’m determination itself
And it’s a story I’ll be telling everyone
As soon as I get there

And you know what?
I think I’ve found it already
I can’t predict if it will last
Maybe soon we’ll call it past
But for now, while I lay all weapons down
I call it home and I won’t feed any doubt

I’m already where I wanted to be
I’m already where I wanted to be from the start

It’s a shame to realize I’m not here often
To see there’s glory in simplicity
Like waking up to the morning sun
I lost track of when I started to live this way
Like I don’t know a spare second
But who knows when I’ll have a second chance
I’m sure it’s time to start a simple change

I can’t tell if it will last
Maybe soon we’ll call it past
But for now, while I lay my weapons down
I call it home and I won’t feed any doubt

If I close my eyes long enough
I can hear you singing me to sleep
When you thought I was too young
I can’t tell if I’ve really grown since then
Don’t let me go away on my own, not yet
I’m not ready, I’ve never thought I ever was
I don’t really know anything but that I’m here
I’m present, I’m conscious, I’m feeling everything

I can’t tell if it will last
Maybe soon we’ll call it past
But for now, while I lay my weapons down
I call it home and I won’t feed any doubt

And I’m already where I wanted to be
I’m already where I wanted to be from the start

Suddenly it feels like something I used to know
Suddenly it feels like home
Home, home
I’m home