Here's a well-known mantra: love yourself before you love someone else. Simple words, right? But it's hard to love someone who sabotages all your real moments. The person who can't focus on losing the extra weight. The one that doesn't believe you're ever worthy of being loved.

So I need to "rehearse and repeat it," as taught by Dua Lipa, or "fake it until you make it," the words in the mindset of everyone who aims to build confidence from nothing.

Rephrasing and adding my twist, maybe I facilitate some people's way to my feelings. Therefore, when I need to find recovery, I have to decide to revoke this access.

Revoked Access

I ruined my day again
With these obsessions
I wrecked my faith
Guess I'll never learn my lesson
Can't claim coincidence to spare me
If there was a threshold of repeated mistakes
I'd be much over it

The thing I'm trying to get into my head
It's been discussed before
But sometimes I'd rather have him than have to believe

You can't commit to loving
If you don't love yourself
Now that I know myself better
I know I needed something else

I drove myself crazy again
Craving someone's touch
I sabotaged a good moment
Letting bitter nothings in my ear
Disconnect me from the conversation
I'm watching my back all night
Stuck in a feeling that won't disappear

The thing I'm trying to get into my head
To make up for the lost time
Sometimes I'd rather have him, even if he'd rather leave

You can't commit to loving
If you don't love yourself
Now that I know myself better
I know I needed something else

Know too well the sources
That can hurt me deeply
Kept me in the dark so long
Left to pick up the pieces
Still, the alternate path I face
Never lead me to dead ends
I guess fate is going ahead
Me and my good friend
To the core, both faith-seekers

You can't commit to loving
If you don't love yourself
Now that I know myself better
I know I needed something else

Tired of letting everything rewrite me
One day I made the choice
I decided to revoke the access
To manage only the good spirits
I needed to revoke the access
Maintain my feelings off-limits
To anyone but to myself

You can't commit to loving
If you don't love yourself
Now that I know myself better
I know I needed something else
So I'm revoking the access